Written by Lianne Kolirin, CNN
“I wish I had kept the nose of my ancestors,” she said. “I think I would have grown into it.”
Hadid has been accused of having had numerous other procedures, the magazine wrote, but the 25-year-old denies this.
“People always have something to say, but what I have to say is, I’ve always been misunderstood in my industry and by the people around me.”
The new Vogue interview details the “burnout” Hadid says she experienced last year, which led her to a treatment program involving medication and talk therapy. “There were people online saying, ‘You live this amazing life,'” she said. “So then how can I complain? I always felt that I didn’t have the right to complain, which meant that I didn’t have the right to get help, which was my first problem.”
While she alludes to “multiple childhood traumas,” it is clear the pressures of working in the fashion industry have taken their toll.
Bella Hadid walks the runway during the Isabel Marant Fall-Winter 2022 show in Paris. Credit: Peter White/Getty Images
“I’ve had girls in my lap crying to me at four in the morning, still at fittings for a show when they have to be at another show at 7 a.m.,” she said. “Completely destroyed, hair burned off, haven’t eaten anything, exhausted to the point where they’re shaking.”
Hadid acknowledges progress has been made in recent years, but there remains much to be done as “fashion can make or break you.”
She told Vogue: “Finally girls are standing up about sample sizes, but when I first started seven years ago, I couldn’t fit into Saint Laurent. And I remember a stylist talking about my weight because I couldn’t zip up.
“Looking back, I think, yeah, because a Saint Laurent sample size from the runway was just not a real size for anybody. But then you think there’s something wrong with you, and no one around you is saying, no, no, you’re fine, don’t worry, it’s a small size.”
Bella Hadid on the cover of American Vogue. Credit: Ethan James Green/Vogue
“I was the uglier sister. I was the brunette. I wasn’t as cool as Gigi, not as outgoing,” she said. “And unfortunately when you get told things so many times, you do just believe it. I always ask myself, how did a girl with incredible insecurities, anxiety, depression, body-image issues, eating issues, who hates to be touched, who has intense social anxiety—what was I doing getting into this business? But over the years I became a good actress.”